Sometimes i just dont understand
Why i am so different,
Why cant i be just like everyone else and accept that nothing is forever,
Why cant I figure out everything changes and to go with the flow,
Why havent i realized I'l find someone new and never feel so much pain,
Why didnt i learn, to live life with a brand new start,
why am i so different,
why am i still crying at night for all that he is,
why do i search for words that wont mean anything to him,
why dont i understand that love was a waste and he doesnt love me.

Sigh,
Its been days, What am i suppose to do or even feel now?
How to express how im feeling inside?
I seriously hate people thinking that im a emo .
No one understands me.
I didnt mean to post thing at fb to get attention,
its just that i've no where else to show my feelings.
Shagged.
Why nobody appreciates me? Didn't i try enough? or it waasnt good enough?
From the day i heard from you, i was happy.
But, somehow, somethings make me wanna give up,
The first time i delete your no. , was after 30mins of crying.
The second time i delete your no. , is after i never heard from you for a day.
But, after all, i still save back your no. becos i cant make myself to it.
When i didnt receive ur text, i panic v long and decide to text you.
But, everything just don't go the way i want it too.
Sometimes i wonder, are you being forced to reply me text?
Or being told to do so.
HAIS.
They are all convincing me that i can meet a better guy in poly,
But, i don care who im going to meet, i want you. you you you!
Its clearly said that i liked you but, i got no replies from it.
Why do i always have to be the one who is initative ?
This sucks, it will scare guys away, i know.
but, if i don start, will he?
Thats the question.
Im really tired. everyday i tell myself, forget him bah,
but, at the end of th day, donno by what ways, i just give myself an excuse not to.
I cant, i just cant.
Nothing goes smoothly in 2011.
It arent suppose to be this way.
its not like im dying for a boyfriend you see.
hais.
Open ur mind, love will open ur heart.
I think i've never been this stress before,
donno whether if i should continue chasing pavements.
I JUST WANT TO KNOW HOW YOU FEEL.
NO WISHYWASHY. ):

I like you i like you i like you and i really like you.
I hate waiting because thats when time pass really slow .
Dam, im wasting my youth again, but, nevermind bah.
Just hoping that one day eventually everything will be paid off.
FML.