This is a little cracker i seen during ktv.
Its really wierd when i told myself to forget and it just pops out randomly.
After i stopped working, i had been going to nex.
I admit most of the time , i wanted to see you.
But, always didn't get to see you.
Remembering the first time i gets excited when i see you.
I kept looking into your shop to find you.
I keep whinning and wanting to know you more.
I pleased my friend to get your number.
I took courage to text you, even though it really hurts.
I always peep at you , i can't take my eyes off you.
Remembering i was told to work at plazasing ,
which means i can't see you for days, i cried,
I really did, silli-ly .
I missed you, you used to be my motivation to work.
You're the reason why i check my cellphone every day n night.
You're the first guy that makes me finally feel how its like
when someone don't reply my message and ,
I was always the one whom tries to find topic to make you reply.
I did everything i could just wanting you to be mine.
But, it never did success.
I remember the one fine day i was waiting for my friends at bishan after work.
And i saw you, i was soooo happy, i seriously did,
running with the train just to see you.
I know im silly but, i still did.
We took the train together that day,
but, you pretended i wasn't there, my eyes was in you.
My friends said , im silly, they said they can feel my heart brokenned.
When someone told me you're attached , i cried , 2 days.
I saw someone giving you a gift, it upsets me alot.
I know we're not really friends but, you've the ability to break me down.
I really don't know why, you're just someone special.
I always tell myself, not to peep anymore, but,
i still did , and each time i tell myself '' okok , last time okay, stop looking..''
But, it had never been the last time.
I use to have big water bottle and there's always ur name in it.
Its always wroted in mirror image, whenever theres paper n pen,
your name will start to appear everywhere.
I remember on the 18th, i know it was ur birthday on that day itself,
but i have to rush to catch a movie, i asked my colleague to get u a cake,
but, she asked me not to be silly.
It really hurts , i wished i can do many things for you to make you happy.
Loving someone who doesn't feel the same way, really hurts.
Im tired of pretending im happy but inside, its hurting.
I always hope you tell me how u feel.
but, you never did.
I texted you yesterday, you did not reply,
i tot you won't anymore so , i didnt hoped.
But, you replied it today, i was suprise and im happy.
This time round , you told me a different thing .
You told me days back, '' we can be friends '' ,
today you said '' we can be friends first lo'' ,
i don't know what you mean but, i always think positively.
Thats how silly i am.
But, i wont think anymore.
I'll let everything be in its own way.
If one day i starts to matter, you will tell me, right??
I knowww i should give up but, you gave me a lil hope today.
What should i do next?? ):