Hey, im here . again.
Today , im sad..
I thought of you, i thought of the hope yesterday..
I can't sleep , i kept wanting to go nex just to see you.
And , i did but, i know i shouldn't anymore.
It doesn't matter what you said last night, everything is still the same.
I thought saying im over you means i can get over you.
But, im still here, stucked.
I know i don't matter to you, its true.
Now , i know. i see the truth.
The fact is , im all along the one who 自作多情.
But, have you wondered why?
Why i can be so thick skin and don't care about what others think about me,
just to persue a little you, in my life??
I really feel for you but , even tho you don't, i still do.
I even think very far, i wonder if one day we get together, how great will it be.
I still tell myself, if this is so, after my school, i will complete my homework,
and wait for you to knock off and than train back home with you.
Why am i so fucking silly, so fucking naive? ):
I tried to tell myself to be mature and act like i am one just not to make you feel
like i'm a xmm. but, have you ever understand it?
Shagggg.
I feel like crying but, i force myself not to.
I've been crying n dying for you but, you will never know it.
Tomorrow, perhaps will be the last day i go to nex just to see you.
And, i'll try to forget you after that.
Its gonna be hard, theres going to be pain , i know.
but, what else can i do?
If you ever told me how you feel, i'll be grateful but, you never will.

爱你，多过爱我自己。
为了你，我可以放弃一切，奋不顾身的去爱你，但你依然是无动于衷。
我又为何要自甘多弱呢？爱你并不简单，但我还是无法控制自己不去爱你。
i know theres a big gap between us.
I always tried to go closer but, you walked away.
Just becos i made th first move doesn't mean im not a shy person.
Sigh.
Im really hurt , the same thing i recieve ever since the first day i know you.
Dude, when will you actually starts to spare a thought for me?
ily ):