Those empty papers.
Saturday, January 8, 2011
I'm still here , loving you .
12:30 AM
趁以为能够忘记你的我，原来还是办不到。
看到你离开的那一幕，依然很痛心，
依然会想念你，爱慕你，担心你，在乎你。
Its now 080111.
But, i'm still not over it , well, i shall just wait .
Theres this quote that says '' If you feel like giving up , think of why you held on for so long''
Well, maybe weeks is not long , but for all that i see is only u in me.
I don't know when it eventually started but, i see a part of me, in you.
Its just a crush, i know. But, im sure its not infautation .
I remember last time when my bros asked me ,
why even when i know th love has no ending , yet i still go for it .
And i remembered what i replied to them,
that for i try my best , at least next time i live with no regrets .
I know i can do better , i should just keep on trying .
Looking at you by far is my favourite hobby for now.
Its just , i still didn't have the courage to go to you .
I'll , someday . i promise.
I really wish you would tell me how you feel.
Im clueless , there's no hope but, i don't want to give up yet.
I know i should but, my heart just won't let me to.
Its just like, knowing theres a big tree infront of me,
yet i still step forward to knock against the tree .
I might be badly hurt and there might be intensive pains,
but, i'm willing to take all the pains you give.
For you, theres no replacement.
I just hope one day you'll eventually understand why i'm doing all these
things now which you might feel its irritating .
But, it all happens for a reason .
When theres love, theres pain, i know .
I'll take each pieces of pain from you.
When i see you smile, i don't know if i should be happy or sad,
because, the smile wasn't for me , and , it hurts me alot .
I'm not happy with my life now.
I want to be loved, cared,treated in the correct way and being appreciated for who i am.
I know you're nice guy and i too know you might not wanto hurt me by words.
But , i rather you did than keeping it to yourself.
I'm still waiting for you to text me,
right here waiting for you ....
Get well soon (Y).
If one day, you feel bored and need someone to entertain you, i will.
If one day ,you feel sad and need someone to talk to , i will.
If one day, you feel tired and need a shoulder to lean on , i will.
If one day, you feel like crying ,cry on my shoulder .
If one day, you feel like giving up ,
please remember , i'm always here to wait for you to share your troubles .
If one day, if one day, you feel like telling me th truth about how you felt,
please tell me , no matter if it hurts me , or not.
I just want to know how you feel .
I'm there for you whenever you need me.
Call me, text me , 24/7 here for you.
你是我的快乐，但愿我也能是你的快乐吧 .
爱上你，真的不需要理由 (Y)
Hope you know , i truly liked you .
TNECNIV- :)
